So, it's been a really long time since I last updated. Well, it doesn't matter anyway. I doubt that anyone reads my blog.
I'm back now, and I have too many things to say. I mean, so many things have happened in these few months, too many that I don't even know what to write about. I created a blog because I wanna express my feelings and share my thoughts with you guys, I just write whatever that comes to my mind; I didn't create this blog to paint a rosy picture of my life by writing about posts that boast how wonderful my life is, because NO, my life is not as great as it seems to be. You have no idea how my heart is slowing breaking into pieces beneath that smile. Yeah, I do look normal, I mean, I look normal every day - but doesn't necessarily mean that I feel normal as well.
There are so many things going on in my life, where should I begin with?
Well, exam just ended. I'm not sure if that's a good thing though, but I'm glad that I don't have to burn the midnight oil while trying to cram every single detail from the textbook into my brain and endure the tiring days. You know what, I only managed to get 4 hours of sleep every day in exam week. As for night before History paper, I didn't not get any sleep at all and still pulled through the day, with the help of coffee. I've found caffeine really useful. Caffeine never has its effect on me before - I can drink a cup of caffeine and still fall asleep right after that. Maybe it works this time because I insisted on not going to bed? Oh well. On the other hand, since exam has ended, I can no longer feel the urge to study anymore. It's like, I'm always finding excuses to take a break after exam had ended, but I always end up taking breaks that are way too long. And to be honest, I feel lifeless without exam. :/
Exam is not that important to me anymore. I don't actually see exam as an essential part of school life, but I just like the kind of motivation and excitement that exams can give you.
So let's not talk about exam :)
One thing I've been realizing all this while - time passes really fast. Time flies, it's already November. Like what? My mind is still stuck in summer. But anyway, summer has come and passed, and we have entered fall (Okay, summer had already ended like, 2 months ago?). I don't want 2010 to end. I don't wanna leave form 2 and afternoon session life. Yeah sure, I've always been all excited and eager to leave the afternoon session, but I do regret it now. I'm not ready for a new year nor a new life. There are so many things that I'm not ready to let go of, yet.
It's half past one at midnight now, I guess I should get more sleep to replace the hours of sleep I've lost in the past week. Getting sufficient sleep or rest is essential to maintain a healthy life, so ciao! ;)
