Wednesday, April 28, 2010
; 7:26 AM
And I wanted you to dance right there,
In the middle of the parking lot.
I'm still feeling sick. My fever is getting better, but sore throat is getting worse. However, I still insisted going to school today despite the doctor strongly recommended that I take a break off. Thinking about the horror of the piles of homework I'd be getting, I'd better not skip school, not even for a day.
Anyway, Miss Selfridge's new collection inspired by the popular hit TV Series, Gossip Girl was launched. Each outfit was intentially designed to represent different characters from the show to suit different personalities.
I like Jenny's style. :) Think glamorous red carpet diva meets punk rocker.
P/S: I'm a hundred miles away but you look good today, yes you do. I can imagine what you're going right now. ;D
Tuesday, April 27, 2010
; 5:23 AM
I'm falling even more in love with you,
Letting go of all I've held onto.
I love her hair; she looks picture perfect in this shot.
We all always struggle to look perfect in a picture, and take so many times of attempt just for that one shot. I wonder how professional models make their pictures seem so flawless.
Anyway, I am sick now. REALLY sick. This time, all diseases seem to be attacking me in one time. Flu+Sore throat+Fever. Feeling sick sucks terribly. I better recover faster before I'll have to miss school and get tons of homework piled up together which I will have to complete in a day. Having flu is the worst part. It's so hard for me to breath. And sneezing constantly is not something I like to do.
I'm starting to like back the songs I once upon got so obsesssed with that I kept on repeating it a million times as if the radio was broken, but then I somehow got bored of it and never listened to it again. You know, it's like, when I listen to this song which used to be a favourite of mine, I get that kinda feeling I once had when I listened to the song back then. I feel as if I'm travelling back to the past when I used to listen to those songs. If you don't get what I mean, nevermind. It's pretty complicated and hard for me to express how I feel in just a few words.
P/S: You have got no idea how I felt when I discovered you.
Friday, April 23, 2010
; 11:45 PM
And I don't know where to go from here.
I have a bad habbit. I always frown. I frown a lot. I don't mean to frown, and when I frown, I'm not showing any hatred or anger. I just frown without knowing it. I can't tell why; but I do not like myself frowning. Therefore, I'm gonna try my best to abstain myself from frowning and hopfeully I won't frown anymore.
Anyway, I went to Sri Sedaya's Carnival for Ping Pong competition. That school feels so famailiar because I went there for ping pong tournament back in two years ago when I was std6. The last time I went there, I had to just sit aside and secretly peep at people receiving their medals, while I get nothing at all. But this year, I can't believe I actually became one of those people that I used to peep at. I got a silver medal for singles and gold for doubles. And I can't find a word to describe how I feel now. It justs feels so weird. I feel as though I didn't give my best try today, but then I still feel satisfied of my achievements. I wonder what is the suitable adjective to describe my current mood. Still, I'm looking forward to the next tournament which I have no idea when will it be. Hopefully it won't be long from now.
To be honest, I first regretted skipping Canteen Day for this competition. I wanted to go back to school and just ditch the matches, but I can't because I cannot carry myself back all the way to USJ12; I don't have a car. So I just convinced myself and told myself that what was done is done, I cannot change it anymore. Since I have chosen to go for this competition, I'll have to continue moving forward without looking back. Sometimes, chances do not always come. Once I've missed Canteen Day, I think I'll miss it forever, because they only have it once in a blue moon. To be exact, 4 or 5 years I suppose. However, still, staring at my medals made me forgot everything I've lost and think of what I've got. So I think I'm pretty happy with my current situation.
P/S: When will I see your face again?
Wednesday, April 21, 2010
; 8:54 AM
It's a quarter after one,
I'm all alone,
And I need you now.
It's midnight already, but I'm still awake and blogging here.
I can tell that my mood has brighten up a little, however I'm still feeling depressed. I understand the harms of depression, but I just can't help it. Maybe time will cure everything.
Anyway, I feel bad and guilty now. I know that I always tend to neglect a friend when I'm with another friend. It's been a hundred or maybe thousand times of guilt; but yet I'm still making the same mistake. At the end of the day, I still love my friends. I love them. And honestly, my life would suck badly without those people. My friends' presence in my life mean so much to me; they're essential to my life. I could never imagine life without them. I love them, but I don't know how to express my appreciation for them.
The highlight of the day was that I have learned the importance of class spirit and also team spirit. Here's a deep confession: I used to hate my class. Nope, I abhorred my class back when I was in Form1. I think that it sucked, and I wanted to get out of it so badly. There was never a second that I enjoyed being in my class.
And that was the past. SO OVER.
Let's focus on the present. Now, I love my class. I love it, just as it is. I don't care what do you think about my class; no matter how negative can your judgement about my class be, I still love it. 2 Genesis rocks. I totally regret not discovering how truly great this class is before. I wouldn't want to get out of it now. If can I stay in this class forever throughout my secondary lifetime, I'd be willing and happy to.
Speaking of my class, please visit 2Genesis's official class blog:
Anyway, the 45th annual Country Music Awards was held on 19th April, at Las Vegas.
Here are some of my personal favourite red carpet moments:
Btw, Taylor claimed that she's 5'10 (180cm). Can you believe it?
P/S: Avryl, if you're seeing this, I finally heard the song "Need you now" and guess what? It was as awesome as you said to be! :D
Tuesday, April 20, 2010
; 7:53 AM
And honestly,
My life would suck without you.
No shopping, no spending, no splurging for one entire month.
Why? Because I'm saving to buy a new ping pong bat, which obviously I have to pay for it because if it was my parents who were playing, I probably wouldn't have to go through this whole frugal life for a month.
I guess I will be fine.
Anyway, exam is approaching us day by day, although I feel as if March exam just ended not long ago. Oh god, I think a 1oo kg weight just fell and crashed over me. I feel so stressed and burdened.
To make matters worse, I will, and I have to give up Canteen Day this Saturday because there is another tournament at Sri Sedaya. At the end of the day, I still think that tournament is more worth it. So I guess I wouldn't regret my choice. After all, it's not like I'm totally neglecting my class's plans, because I am involved in some preparations and stuffs, although I would not show up on the day itself. Errr, why am I contradicting myself?
Besides that, there are some other things going on that keep me excited even at the most boring days in my life. So life isn't that bad after all.
P/S: Elle.Why.See.
PP/S: I just got a new pair of court shoes and now I can't wait for my new bat ;D
Monday, April 12, 2010
; 4:44 AM
You're all that I've ever wanted.
I know I'm looking gloomy and being grumpy recently. You've got no idea how I truly felt beyond those plastic smiles. I think I just let my emotions take control of me, which apparently isn't a good thing but I couldn't help it. I'm feeling down. Very, extremely sad. How sad? Shopping's always been a hard to resist activity to me. I find those mannequins at the shop fronts with glasses that spell 'SALE' so interesting. You can never doubt my passion for shopping. I love shopping.
And to my disbelief, I didn't actually buy anything when I went to Pyramid for like the whole day on Saturday. Yes, I am very serious; I'm not lying. I got myself NOTHING at all. No paper bags; no money being removed from my pocket. I can't explain why either. I was so upset that shopping couldn't even cheer me up.
Well, and why am I so sad? Hmmm. I think a cupid just release an arrow and poke me with it and I instantly fell for someone I never expect I would. Okay, let's get the point straight. I went there to gain somemore experience (although this is my 4th year) and undoubtedly, to earn medals. Never would I have thought that I would step through the front door of the hall with good memories that will keep me distracted from the reality. I think that person's really cool. I am utterly impressed by his drastic transformation after not seeing him for a year. I mean, we all are. He looks downright hot. Okaaay, I can't believe I'm saying this, but I just did. He is head to toe coolness. Who cares if people wouldn't agree with me. I personally think that it's not the good looks that make a person hot; it's the personality and the style. That's why I find him attractive.
But I doubt I would see him again. Even though I will, it's gonna be a long time from now. A REAL long time. Well, at least I'm willing to wait, despite my impatience is uprising inside, I'll tame it down, and just wait.
Anyway, here are more pics from the tournament. Pictures taken from Kai Ying and Zane Han.
Absolute coolness.
What was I doing with the bat?
I was soo attracted by the match.
Friday, April 9, 2010
; 5:18 AM
I'll never be the same,
If we ever meet again.
Won't let you get away,
If we ever meet again.
>
Memories
of
MSSD
PingPong
REWIND.
After going through the pictures, I have learned a lesson. Avoid taing pictures when you're sweaty cuz your face will look greasy in the shot. Especially mine. Moreover, you're tired; you wouldn't look energetic and photo-ready for great shots. (LOL)
Yeah, I know that the number of photos are limited. But this proves that we all were too busy living in the current moment; we didn't even bother about pictures. Yes, you might have more than 200shots taken from an event, but you're not going to be in any of them, because you are too distracted by pictures rather than having fun. So these are the only shots out of a few more from my phone.
I wish I could turn back time again. But it's all over. I'm definitely missing you, mssd 2010. I can't wait for next year. Btw, our school achieved quite a satisfying result (although it may not be as good as Taman Sri Muda and Sri KL), we were all pretty happy with it. At least I know I've tried. Okay, frankly, I was a bit distracted while I was competing in the semi finals. And I lost because my mind was drifting away; I'm not keeping my eye on the ball. Still, I made it to the semi finals. :D
P/S: I can't wait to see you again. When can we meet again? I gotta talk to you.
PP/S: I shall resume back my normal life without this whole obsession over ping pong. C'mon woman, you've got to focus on school too. Speaking of this, I gotta log off to do my homework and study now. Au revoir.
; 4:43 AM
Absence makes the heart grow fonder.
My friends had been telling me I look 10 times angrier and moodier today. Maybe it's true. I'm completely devastated by how fast time passes. Why does time have to pass on a lighting fast speed? In the blink of an eye, MSSD Ping Pong 2010 is over. The ending of MSSD marks the begining of MSSS. Worst, I'm not going for the selection. BUMMER D;
I wanna go to MSSS so badly. I'm desperate. But reality wouldn't fullfil my dreams. Tough luck. I wanna see those people again. I shall work harder and try again next year. One thing for sure, I'm gonna look gloomy these few days cuz my heart is still left on the 8th of April. I find it hard to focus on the present cuz I can't stop looking back to the past, which is undoubtedly a bad thing. Yesterday could have lasted longer, in fact, it should have. I know that time is going to heal everything, and I also gotta try hard to let go. One day, I'm gonna be back to normal just as I am. :)
Anyway, I had to give up being in charge of the school's talent search audition. And I totally didn't regret. MSSD is a much better option and it's wayyy funner.
Upcoming competition at Sri Sedaya. Weird how, Canteen Day falls on the same day. What an unexpected cooincidence. Undoubtedly, I'm giving up Canteen Day for ping pong, which I think is a wise choice. The most surprising thing is, everytime I'm going for competition, something else important (okayy, important, yes, but not as much as ping pong) will fall on the same day too. And I always have to choose among two choices. I'm having a feeling that god is trying to tell me that I can't ask for everything to be perfect.
Wednesday, April 7, 2010
; 5:26 AM
If I cut my hair,
If I change my clothes,
Will you notice me?
Who wouldn't die for this drop dead gorgeous pair of Jimmy Choos?
Speaking of Jimmy Choo, Aziq told me that he saw Jimmy Choo at Taipan 99Speedmart a few weeks ago buying beer. Lots of beer. LMAO. I can't judge if he was joking or serious. Haha. But wouldn't Jimmy be in the UK and making a pair of new shoes for Queen Elizaberth?
Anyway, MSSD Ping Pong is tomorrow. I can literally feel butterflies in my stomach now. Wish me luck. (:
One last thing before I leave.
If you're seeing this and your blog is privated, could you please invite me?
lilaclezlez@hotmail.com
Merci fellow bloggers :)
Saturday, April 3, 2010
; 2:35 AM
But I'm Me.
I wanna be flawless,
But you see,
Every chip, every dent, every little mistake.
Fun facts about Easter candies:
Chocolate Easter Eggs.
Easter eggs symbolize rebirth. The tradition of giving easter eggs started back in the 19th century. The largest chocolate easter egg made was 25 feet tall.
Chocolate Easter Bunny.
90 million chocolate easter bunnies are sold during Easter day every year. 76% of people eat the bunny's ears first.
Jelly Beans.
Americans eat 16 million jelly beans at easter.
Friday, April 2, 2010
; 9:36 PM
When the waves are flooding the shores
And I can't find my way home anymore,
Thats when I look at you.
I love this picture. There is absolutely no doubt that she's beautiful. She looks elegant in this shot.
I am very, extremely frustrated with my computer. It's not the internet connection. It's the computer. My comp is so laggy, and I will soon run out of patience. Thanks to the games my brother's been playing with this comp. From maple to garena, sudden attack and so on. Online games stink. Ok, maybe not all, but most of them. Why? I have 10 very good (and convincing) reasons to abhor online games.
1. It makes your computer laggy.
2. It is a complete waste of time.
3. It steals away people's life. Once you've played a game, you have to log on every day or else you'll miss out the free items and daily bonus and blah, blah, blah.
4. Facing the computer for too long will eventually lead to short-sightedness.
5. It hurts your brain. When you've already used all you're brain power and energy on the game, I don't think you'll have any left for some vital and important stuffs. (eg. homework and studies)
6. It wastes electricity. Even despite if you're using laptop without the charger, you'll still have to charge your comp when it runs out of battery, and this requires electricity.
7. It wastes telephone bill. (This is only applicable for those who are using TM net or any other networks that charges to your telephone bill)
8. It makes you unaware of the surrounding. Once you start to play a game, you'll be paying rapt attention to the screen, and thus become not vigilant of what is going on around you.
9. It makes you addicted to it, just like how junkies are addicted to cocaine. Once you're addicted, it will be hard for you to let go of it.
10. It makes you go mad (and insane), literally! When you're playing a game and you're losing it, imagine how will you be like.
And of course, there are tons more other side affections and disadvantage that online games can bring to you. No offense to online game lovers. This is what I personally think. If you think that I have the wrong perception for online games, correct me. I wouldn't mind.
Thursday, April 1, 2010
; 5:30 AM
I've broken my heart so many times I stopped keeping track.
No offense but why are so many people following the crowd nowadays? I don't believe in "stick to the status quo". I wanna be different, which is what I am striving for, and I adore people who dare to make a change. I like things people usually don't like. It's just a complete sickness to see a seaful of wannabe's most likely to be NOBODIES. Yes, I feel downright disgusted by wannabe's. I'm sorry if you feel offended; I'm merely being frank.
I like people who are original, as in they have their own style, own way of talking and own way of doing everything.
Oooo yeah, I feel like Simon Cowell in American Idol :)
People like him, no matter how nasty and mean his comments could be. People just like him. He stands out among the pannel of judges, because he always has different thoughts compared to the other judges. At least we all appreciate his intergrity and frankness.
I like people who are original, as in they have their own style, own way of talking and own way of doing everything.
Speaking of Simon, he is actually leaving American Idol. Yes, this season is allegedly his last season. Huge bummer. I wonder if people would still watch American Idol without Simon. Well at least I know I wouldn't anymore. Like c'mon, American Idol without Simon is like Paris without the Eiffel Towel or New York City without the Statue of Liberty.
Anyway, MSSD ping pong is next week, and I'm totally, utterly ecstatic for it. Even despite it's been ages since I last touched my bat. I think I'm gonna have a last minute training. I'm always doing things in the eleventh hour. *sighs*
I shall strive to add a touch of flavour to this blog. Hopefully, somehow.
P/S: Birch-alert! :O
PP/S: What was I thinking?! I'm not sure if I got over it.
What was I doing with the bat?
I was soo attracted by the match.
Errrrrr.
Farewell, SMK Seri Serdang! Thanks for the great memories (and I shall also blame it for making me loathe to let go of this day). I will be back soon. Soon, a year after. I'm definitely looking forward to see your face again.
