I don't know what to post about because I don't find anything special in my boring life >.<
What are the holidays about?
I told myself that I had to use my free time wisely and study in preparation for the year-end exam however now matter how my fingers struggle to flip open books, my mind is unwilling to coperate with it.
Now I've been questioning myself.
Should I turn back and keep my hair long or just look forward and keep it short?
Please give me some advice - I don't know where to go from here.
Btw, I went to the dentist to get braces but the I couldn't bear with the pain.
So I refused from getting braces.
But I'm going back today again for another dental appoinment.
I couldn't stand the pain O________o
Frankly, I rather have ugly teeth than having to bear with pain for the rest of my life in two years.
Maybe I'm not ready for braces?
Haihhhhh.
FYI, I'll have to extract two teeth in order to get braces.
That'll definietly hurt =(I'm not sure whether I should get braces or not.
I have to admit that I suck at making decisions as I tend to hesitate alot.




On the other hand,

Sorry for the extremely late wishes =(

I'm so damn outdated.

You're truly an awesome friend =D

For a longer and more proper birthday post, visit Dillon's blog ;]]

P/S: I guess I was mislead and picked the wrong choice. But it's never too late for me to regret and turn back. Now I shall remedy this whole situation by turning back to where it started and fix everything to prevent it from getting worse.

Because these things will change.



Check out this awesome new vid of Taylor's.


I've been addicted to this song like, a year ago and now I finally saw the video 8D
I don't really like the video, but the song is still great (:
Btw, I'm gonna skip school until September 1st :D
Wanted to go to school today but since no one is going, I rather just stay at home.
Now I'm gonna die of boredom O___o

P/S: I'm proud to announce that it's really over and I'm ready for a new begining. Unlike last time how I sturggled to let go everything, this time I swear that the past will be left behind like how it's burried under thick layers of soil, and shall never be recalled again. It's the end =)

And now I'm picking up the pieces,
Spending all of these years,
Putting my heart back together.



I can't believe that I actually intended to go to school today.
Everything turned out worse than I can ever immagine.
At the begining, I felt a little whoosh of excitement as I enter the school cuz I seriously miss going to school early in the morning.
The morning breeze was awesome.
It kinda gives you an energetic and fresh feeling.
FYI, wearing blazer in the morning isn't hot at all, unlike how in the afternoon when I will sweat up a storm if I put my blazer on.
Had a bit trouble asking the students to sit down, as I don't know where they were supposed to sit at.
It was a huge mess and it took us long enough to make everyone sit down.
Then I had to head to my duty place.
My duty place was a restricted area throughout the entire event, so I'll have to face the lonliness.
Thank god Chy Suen and Yew Ming came to accompany me :D
If it weren't them, I'd die out of boredom now.
After my shift, I followed Chy Suen to her duty place while Yew Ming goes to the pedestrain bridge for her duty.
Coincidentally, Wee Sheng and Thevendra were there too.
They kept calling my name and talked crappy stuffs to me.
I don't know why I even bothered to reply them =.='
But somehow I just did.
At first, we had a great laughter together.
Until the moment where they started insulting me.
In front of this guy, they said that I like this guy, then in front of another guy, they said I like that guy. WTH larh.
Worse yet to come, they said it in front of seniors.
Now the seniors must be thinking I'm some sort of pervert. Zzz.
I got so humilated and blood started rushing to my cheeks.
My cheeks became flaming hot and I just felt like screaming on the top of my lungs.
I can barely take it anymore.
I regret I ever wasted my time and breathe to talk to them.
They might be taking it as a just a joke, but what will other people think?
Watch your mouth and think twice before speaking once.
I felt like stabbing their stomach with a knife.
I had never been so embarrased in my life, never, I swear.
Did not see that coming.
As I'm describing that situation, I'm getting more frustrated and anxious.
How in the world am I suppose to face those people in the future?
Although I was totally innocent (honestly), I'm still worried of what they will think of me.
Haihhhh =(
The whole ceremony ended when our headmistress drove out of the school in her car while waving and holding hands with students.
I sincerely wish her all the best after leaving this school :]]
After that, we went for cocurriculum activities.
Played scrabble, loiterred around with Avryl as we had nothing better to do. LOL.
Did not know what I do next, and I'm not trying to recall those dampening memories.
I should have just have a nice rest at home instead of going to school. O___0

And I never thought to doubt you,
I'm better off without you.



I've updated my results so please do check back on the previous post! :)
Btw, skipped school today.
Went to Sheraton hotel for piano exam around 3.14pm but I was lazy to go back to school.
Don't ask me anything about the exam, as tears might probably start to gather in my eyes if I get reminded of it.
It sucked and I kinda screwed up O__o
Oh lord, please at least let me pass - or score merit at the very least!
I don't wanna get suspended from exam for a year =(
But I was relieved it ended.
I don't have to listen to those songs which I've been started playing a year ago for almost every day!
Think about the monotony I felt. Haha.
After having high tea, went to Summit to get some books.
When I stepped into MPH, I probably don't wanna leave there.
The place where books are sold.
Each book with its own unique and exciting story waiting to be devoured by the hunger of a book-addict.
A famailiar wave or excitement floods over me.
I get that kinda feeling whenever I'm on a bookstore ;PP
This is where I belong. My natural habitat xD
I loveeee MPH! :D
I missed out the July issue of Seventeen so I ordered for it at MPH a few weeks ago, and they really ordered it for me! =D
Thanks alot to the MPH staffs!
I would probably end up in frustration if I don't get to buy that copy of Seventeen and moreover, they're featuting David A on the front cover.
Bought the long awaited book - Shopaholic Abroad.
As well as a book mark by positive ideas.
Speaking of bookmarks, I love them alot and just can't get enough of it.
I love and collect inspirational bookmarks with quotes on them.
Looking at those quotes actually encouraged me to be a better person :)
Anyway, while I was waiting for my turn at the waiting room, I camwhored a little in the bathroom as I was bored xD









Oh and, before I forget,
TAGGED BY MISHA :D



HAIR...you have/use:
[X] straightener
[ ] curling iron
[X] mousse
[X] hairspray
[X] gel
[X] other sprays
[X] bobbypins
[ ] round barrel brush
[X] blow dryer
[X] mirror
[ ] you have or had dyed your hair
[ ] you have or had highlights
[X] you need to check your hair at least once every hour
[X] you hate it when ppl touch your hair
Total: 10

EYES...you have/use/do:
[X] black eyeliner
[ ] other color eyeliner
[X] eye shadow
[X] mascara
[ ] fake eyelashes
[X] eyelash curler
[X] eye shimmer
[ ] colored contacts
[ ] stunner shades
[X] eye makeup remover
[X] you refrain from touching your eyes because of your make up
[X] you try to avoid from getting your makeup smudged
Total so far: 18

LIPS/TEETH...you have/use/do:
[X] clear lip gloss
[X] red or pink lip gloss
[ ] lip stick
[X] chap stick
[ ] lip plumper
[X] electric toothbrush
[X] teeth whitener
[ ] lip liner
[ ] more than 15 lipglosses
[X] toothpaste
[X] mouthwash
[X] you reapply your lipgloss/lipstick frequently
[ ] it takes you at least 5-10 mins to get your lip gloss perfect
Total so far: 26

COMPLEXION/OVER-ALL FACE...you have/use:
[ ] blush
[ ] moisturizer
[X] face wash
[ ] bronzer
[X] makeup remover
[X] face wipes
[X] powder
[X] cover up
[ ] tweezers
Total so far: 31

NAILS...you have/use/do:
[X] nail polish
[X] nail file
[X] nail clipper
[X] nail buffer
[X] cuticle remover
[ ] nail hardener
[ ] nail brush
[ ] have/had Fake nails
[ ] nail scissors
[X] you hate it when your nail polish chips
Total so far:37

CLOTHES...you have/use/do:
[X] takes you 30 minutes or more to pick out an outfit
[X] almost never like your outfit
[X] hate it when you spill something on your shirt
[X] obsessed with what people think
[X] you hate it when you can't find shoes to match
Over-all Total: 42

Now, take your score and multiply it by 2.
Then, re post as 'I am __% obsessed with my looks and then tag 10 friends to do the same.


42 x 2= 84%
I am 84% obsessed with my looks O___o


I tag:
Anyone who is willing to do this tag! =)


Until then,CIAO! :)

And when you slammed the front door shut,
A lot of others opened up,
So did my eyes so I could see
That you never were the best for me.



TAGGED BY DILLON (WOOFIE)



40 SECRETS ABOUT YOURSELF,BE HONEST, NO MATTER WHAT!


1. WHAT IS YOUR NATURAL HAIR COLOR?
- HONESTLY: Black... But people claim that it's brown, so um, I don't know.

2. WHERE WAS YOUR PROFILE PICTURE TAKEN?
- HONESTLY: The one I use at most accounts? Finland.

3. WHATS YOUR MIDDLE NAME?
- HONESTLY: En.

4. YOUR CURRENT RELATIONSHIP STATUS:
- HONESTLY: I don't have any (:

5. HONESTLY, DOES YOUR CRUSH LIKE YOU BACK?
- HONESTLY: I have no idea.


6. WHATS YOUR CURRENT MOOD?
- HONESTLY: Normal but a bit frustrated.

7. WHATS THE NAME OF YOUR FIRST BEST FRIEND?
- HONESTLY: I can't define who is my bezzie currently.


8. WHAT MAKES YOU HAPPY?
- HONESTLY: Getting good grades, having what I want, doing what I want to do, shopping, hanging out with friends....

10. IF YOU COULD GO BACK IN TIME, AND CHANGE SOMETHING WHAT WOULD YOU CHANGE?
- HONESTLY: Nothing, because things might get worse, and I'm satisfied with mu current situation. =)

11. IF YOU MUST BE AN ANIMAL FOR ONE DAY, WHAT WOULD YOU BE
- HONESTLY: A dog? I wanna know if dogs can really understand humans.

12. EVER HAD A NEAR DEATH EXPERIENCE
- HONESTLY: Nope.

13. SOMETHING YOU DO A LOT:
- HONESTLY: Sleep, go online, watch tv.

14. WHATS THE NAME OF THE SONG STUCK IN YOU HEAD RIGHT NOW?
- HONESTLY: 99 times - Kate Voegele

15. WHO DID YOU COPY/PASTE THIS TAG FROM?
- HONESTLY: Dillon's blog.

16. NAME SOMEBODY WITH THE SAME BIRTHDAY AS YOU:
- HONESTLY: Err, Joseph Hadyn (A musician) :DD

17. WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU CRIED?
- HONESTLY: A few days ago I guess,

18. HAVE YOU EVER SANG IN FRONT OF A LARGE AUDIENCE?
- HONESTLY:Yes, perfomance at a music concert,

19. IF YOU COULD HAVE ANY SUPER POWER, WHAT WOULD IT BE?
- HONESTLY: The ability to have limitless credit and also the power to know what is one other people's mind without needing them to speak out. *winks*

20. WHATS THE FIRST THING YOU NOTICE ABOUT THE OPPOSITE SEX?
- HONESTLY: Eyes and face, I guess so.

21. WHAT DO YOU USUALLY ORDER FROM TIM HORTONS?
- HONESTLY: What is that?

22. WHATS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET RIGHT NOW?
- HONESTLY: I'm not sure =P

23. FAVORITE COLOR?
- HONESTLY: Lilac! Oh and silver, white and black too ;D

24. WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU LIED?
- HONESTLY: Can't recall.

25. DO YOU STILL WATCH KIDDIE SHOWS ON TV?
- HONESTLY: I have to admit, yes. Tom and jerry is funny :D

(26 pu cian liao)

27. WHAT ARE YOU EATING OR DRINKING AT THE MOMENT?
- HONESTLY:Nothing.

28. DO YOU SPEAK ANY OTHER LANGUAGE?
- HONESTLY: Mandrin, BM, A little bit of Cantonese, Hokkien and Italian.

29. WHATS YOUR FAVORITE SMELL?
- HONESTLY: Citurs =D

30. IF YOU COULD DESCRIBE YOUR LIFE IN ONE WORD, WHAT WOULD IT BE?
- HONESTLY: Indescribable ;PP

31. WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU HUGGED SOMEBODY?
- HONESTLY:Friday?

32. HAVE YOU EVER BEEN KISSED IN THE RAIN?
- HONESTLY:Nopeee.

33. WHAT ARE YOU THINKING ABOUT RIGHT NOW?
- HONESTLY: The laggy internet connection.

34. WHAT SHOULD YOU BE DOING?
- HONESTLY: I don't know. Studying?

35. WHAT WAS THE LAST THING THAT MADE YOU UPSET/ANGRY?
- HONESTLY:That certain person.

37. DO YOU LIKE WORKING IN THE YARD?
- HONESTLY: Errr, as long as it won't be exhasuting or too exposing to the sunlight xD

38. IF YOU COULD HAVE ANY LAST NAME IN THE WORLD, WHAT WOULD IT BE?
- HONESTLY:Hmmmmm....

39. DO YOU ACT DIFFERENTLY AROUND YOUR CRUSH?
- HONESTLY: Perhaps yes.

40. NAME ONE SONG THAT REMINDS YOU OF AN EX:
- HONESTLY: None.

L A S T P E R S O N T H A T

1. Slept in bed beside you?
- Can't remember. I think it's my friend or cousin.

2. Saw you cry?
- I don't know.

3. You went to the movies with?
- My friend Jean?

4. You went out to dinner with?
- Family.

5. You talked on the phone to?
- My mom?

6. Made you laugh?
- Can't recall.


W O U L D Y O U R A T H E R?

1. Pierce your nose or tongue?
- Nose :)

2. Be serious or be funny?
- Both.

3. Drink whole or skim milk?
- I'll go for skim, since whole milk tastes kinda disgusting for me xD

4. Die in a fire or drown?
- Neither.

5. Spend time with your parents or enemies?
- Parents, like duh?


A R E YOU?

1. Simple or complicated?
- Depends on how you see me.

(2 disappear)

3. Retarded?
- Sometimes. LOL.

DO Y O U P R E F E R?

1. Flowers or candy?
- Anything would do :]]

2. Gray or black?
- Gray :D

3. Color or Black and white photos?
- Coloured ones.

4. Sunrise or sunset?
- Sunrise (: I love the morning breeze ;D

5. M&Ms or Skittles?
- M&Ms.

6. Staying up late or waking up early?
- Waking up early. I feel energetic waking up early =D


A N S W E R T R U T H F U L L Y !

1. Do you like anyone?
- Yeah.


2. Do they know it?
- Yes.


A B O U T Y O U!

1. What time
- 8.10 p.m.

2. Your name
- Ler En Zhen.

3. Nickname(s)
- Squirrel, Zhen, Doggie and more.

4. What is your birthdate?
- March 21, 1996.

5. What do you want?
- Everything I wish for.

(6 hilang)

7. How many kids do you want?
- Haven't decide yet.

8. What would you want to name a girl?
- I like Italian names, something like Giselle or Renee ;D

What would you want to name a boy?
- I don't know.

0. You want to get married?
- Maybe.

11. What kind of music do you like?
- Alternative, Pop, Classic, Waltz, Soft rock, Upbeat.


U N I Q U E!

1. Nervous Habits?
- Talk too much crap without even thinking or knowing what am I saying xD

2. Are you double jointed?
- Not sure.

3. Can you roll your tongue?
- Yup [:

4. Can you raise one eyebrow?
- Yeah! =)

5. Can you cross your eyes?
- Yes.

6. Do you make your bed daily?
- Sometimes.


R A N D O M:

1. Which shoe goes on first?
- Anything.

2. Ever thrown something at someone?
- Yeah, by accident.

3. On average, how much money do you carry with you?
-It depends.

4. What jewelry do you wear?
- Anklet.



F O O D
1. Do you twirl your spaghetti or cut it?
- Twirl.

2. Have you ever eaten Spam?
- Is it edible?

3. Favorite ice cream?
- BERRIES :DD

4. How many kinds of cereal are in your cabinet?
- None at the moment.

5. What's your favorite beverage?
- Iced Mocha Frappacino =]

Can you cook?
- Maybe.


IN T H E L A S T M O N T H , H A V E Y O U ?

1. Had a relationship?
- Nope.

2. Bought something
- Definitely.

(3 %$&*^)

4. Sang:
- Yes?

5. Been kissed:
- No.

6. Been hugged:
- Yeah.

7. Felt stupid:
- I always do.

8. Missed someone:
- Yeah, especially my primary school buddies (:


FIRST ...

First CD:
- Hillary Duff I guess.

First Car:
- Not until I have my driving license.

First Stuffed animal:
- Don't remember.


NINE LASTS

Last Alcoholic Beverage:
- Champange

Last Car Ride:
- Back from Kajang.

Last Movie Seen:
- Bride Wars. DVD.

Last Phone Call:
- My mom?

Last Song Played:
- No Surprise - Daughtry

Last Bubble Bath:
- Long time ago.

Last time you Cried:
- Can't recall.

Last Fight:-
Mum.


HAVE YOU EVER

Have you ever been arrested?
- Never.

Have you ever skinny dipped?
- What's that?

Have you ever been on TV?
- Nope.

Have you ever cheated on someone?
- Yeah, I guess so.

Have you ever liked someone who you couldn't have?
- Yes.

SIX THINGS YOU'VE DONE TODAY-

Watch Bride Wars on DVD,
Blog,
Facebook,
Chat online,
Eat,
Sleep.

THREE CHOICES

1. Black or White:
- White.

2. Hot or Cold:
- Cold.

3. Chocolate or Vanilla:
- Vanilla with chocolate coating :D


ONE THING YOU REGRET:
- Trusting that certain person.

BEST:
1. Male friends:-
Alot,I think.

2. Female friends:-
Alot.

3. Vacation:-
Scandinavia. (Norway, Denmark, Sweden and Finland)

4. Memory:-
Alot.

I tag:
Adam
Ann Lee
Deanna
Emily
Kai Ying
Kay Li
Lyn Dee
Misha
Nicole
Ruby
Amira
Yi Jun
Yuen Min

Now that it's all said and done,
I can't believe you were the one.
To built me up and tear me down.
Like an old abondoned house.




Was anticipating for this day since the begining of the week!
Nadia, Deana and Yuen Min came over to my house (:
Had an incrdible time together. ;DD
Here are the pics: